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Nov 29, 20145 min read

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Published: Nov 29, 2014

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My thanksgiving was good, decent actually until my mother went to walk my brother out to her car then apparently went to boat when she was trashed drunk. My sister went to the boat to get her and my mom said I'm staying. My sister boarder the door so she had to sleep in her car. Until my other sister got home and apparently and everyone was screaming. I passed out and didn't hear anything...

I cried my eyes out, my father is being on my ass for my whole paycheck. I'm freaking out for Christmas since I like shopping online. I have been crying and shaking since last week. Then my father, will need more money next week all of my paycheck. I'm so strapped for cash, i been crying and shaking for days.

My boyfriend did the kindest thing I started crying hard, he let me use his credit card since I'm utterly broke. I'm still terrified of using it. I'm still scared of using it...I feel so embarrassed that I'm utterly broke. My god he's absolutely wonderful, I don't deserve it but I'm so happy to have him in my life. That all of my hard earned money is going to my dad since he decided to pay for my moms car payments...

Good news I got my note on my harvest moon group so
i can start on that really soon. Harvest moon is my favorite or one of my favorite game series. I really need to get my ass going on the art and what not too.

It just seems harder and harder to get motivated when constantly sadness and stress keeps tearing me down. I just feel so useless right now nothing seems to work for me...can I ever win ?